Monday, March 17, 2008

Did I say that?

John 13:36-37
36 Simon Peter asked him, "Lord, where are you going?"

Jesus replied, "Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later."

37 Peter asked, "Lord, why can't I follow you now? I will lay down my life for you."

Do you think that Peter recognized that he had offered to the Lord more devotion than he could legitimately muster up? Do you think that he knew it as the words came out of his mouth? At any time, before the cock crowed, did it dawn on him that he had bit off more than he could chew? Or did he, like we, think himself able to truly live for God?

I am a failure. Not as a father so much, not even as a pastor, nor as a husband- but as a disciple. I tell God on those "mountain top moments" that I will follow him anywhere! Only to be embarrassed as he points out that we have had this discussion before. On Sunday I can sing "I surrender all" but early Monday morning negotiations start- my surrender looks more like a temporary cease fire.

God, thank you for loving me even though I am unable to love you completely. Help me to recognize the vocalizations of my foolishness as they leave my lips; and be gracious to me, a dullard who knows not his own limitations. Amen

1 comment:

Tina said...

Like wise Pastor. I find myself in that place from time to time. Wondering sometimes, if I would be able to stand up for Jesus. It's easier said than done, but I pray I can. Jesus said people would come against me because of him. I would go through stuff because of him, but I have to persevere through it all. He said if I deny him before men, he would deny me before our Father in Heaven. I Love Him just like Peter did and I also am weak just the same. I pray I can stand firm. I PRAY.